Aim: Self remember every 15 minutes for 8 hours
Start: 1045
Finish: 1845
Result: 21/32
One mark on a piece of paper indicated a quarterly presence. In total I could accrue 32 marks, four each hour. At the end of the 8 hours I totalled 21 marks.
Notes:
This was an ad hoc on-the-fly type of effort. It was 1045 I was self-remembering and set the aim there and then. There is something in setting aims from a position of already being awake. Here I am, I need to stay here, hold on, this belongs to me. I was present for a continuous 45 minutes, which I class as a flying start. I then hit a nasty state of identifying and found myself confronting emotional difficulties. I remembered the Work adage that says you will never be given more than you can deal with. It was still a painful struggle, my limits were being pushed. I was in the 3rd state almost all day, sometimes only dropping out at the moment I should have recorded my presence. I had another 'backlash' experience mid afternoon. Again I was being pushed and that area of comfort was disappearing. Interesting the psychological moves one makes to recover lost territory. We become more false in those moments, false laugh, false smile, that sort of thing. We are complex creatures but if you ignore the detail, which is the personal bit, we are actually simplistic mechanistic processes that are more crude than subtle.
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A string of lights on a Christmas tree have gone out. I wi... Wait a minute. Just glanced at the clock. It's too late to go out and get more. Unless they sell them at a grocery store that stays open 'til midnight. OK, I will go to that grocery store and buy a string - or strand, or whatever they are called - of lights, or look for some anyway, starting now, and will be present at each step of the way, through all intervals, until I get back and finish this comment in this box (I will leave now and then finish this comment when I return and give a report . . .) --
ok, I'm back. My old observation of intervals and how you can fall into waking sleep at 'turns' and walking through doorways came back to me. Getting into a car or out of a car. I only slipped almost away when weighing three oranges (didn't find the lights I needed).
Third state of consciousness. When you stay in it, time and perception start to change...
OK, I'll disengage from the debate sites (Christian, because repetition is just emptiness).
I've started tonight. One complete event. This third state should also be used for reading/meditating on the only language that is living language... That should be with an aim too. Not necessarily complete-reading aim, but not just read a little here or there. Probably focus on whole books. But with Work you are engaging the Spirit.
Parzival is the Knight who is walking within these symbolic realms. He knows that a car door is a portal between states and worlds. To the Knight of the Inner Order, this is all Real. The exterior world of objects (christmas tree lights, telephone boxes, doors & windows, unmade roads, blankets & bedding, horses & sheep, rolling mists, children in poverty, ice, watches and seasons), is a living non-verbal language of glyphs incised in the consciousness of the Wandering Knight: Opening of the Eyes = Renewal of the Oath of Service. We open our eyes each morning, blearily adjusting to the light of dawn. Mostly we are buried in the comfort of sleep but the Knight should know the meaning of the event and renew the Oath. Or as the great Johnny Cash sang it, "I'm just a poor wayfaring stranger travelling through this land below." Never forget it.
On another point. I'm back on the Word in 2008 but not for a complete reading. It's been a difficult year and there are important and even unimportant things that were begun but not completed, and beyond going back a few years, I've still to complete Plutarch. So 2008 is a year of tidying and building up.
I saw some blog lists of books on sanctification, and one person has Calvin's Commentary on the Book of Psalms. I think that work has alot in it, though I've only read the first and twenty-third.
You comment above about Parzival should be a post, word for word, don't change it...
In fact you should put it as text in the sidebar for a kind of guidance for this journal (I so don't like the word blog)...
The #5 Man level 'language of cosmoses' is connected to your comment above about seeing the moving, physical world of things and events as language.
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