The Ugly Usher

At the end of octave the primary observation blocked out in front of me like an immovable slab of millstone grit is the presence of a Little Man who despite everything stands at the forefront of all that I experience, of all that comes in towards me. The Ugly Usher that was there before any of this Work began is there after the theatre has fallen silent. I have to be careful not to leave an impression here that the Work has come to nothing. It's a wary usher that now knows he can't hide any more. He breathes easy, but that same ease will usher in the New Season soon enough. His presence is a gift that will serve to further the Work. The grail is very paradoxical like that. We always stated: Increase real will, consciousness & understanding. It was never put more simply. It was and remains the whole focus. What comes after the silence at the end of octave? Re-statement, renewal. Personally I always understood that the Work should not edge us further to the outer reaches of society, as recluses or social spastics - I was probably both of those before I engaged the work. After the sacking of Troy, it was only natural that Menelaus would return home with his superficially beautiful wife. Where else was he to go? Helen is Helen, how could he reject her when ultimately she needed his lead? The perfect ascent is impossible.